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What you've done, what you've done you can't keep inside

By the end of the night I'll help you confide

Cause I can see, see your sad self

Cause I can see you're not being yourself

Cranking It Up

This is my earthquake song.

Not trying to trivialise the whole climactic situation around the world. A tsunami in the Bay of Bengal and Calcuttans or *khik* Paschimbongans(?) are as good as more than six feet under. But here it is. So crank it up,motherfucker.

And YAY (x infinity)

But that deserves a post and more on it,later. Right now I am rather preoccupied with real people really living it up like its the last day of their lives.

And oh oh. Beer+Vodka+Rum ... and still sober? 3 months of being a sage. Then this. What does a girl have to do to get drunk around here HUH? I am going to hit you with an answer when I return from my monthlong joyride.

Waking up with a cathartic nightmare has never been more fun.

=) \Being Alive/ This is why I didn't kill myself all that time I felt suicidal at 13.

Remember This Song?

                       



so this is goodbye
cause I can't be living a lie

Positive Reinforcement

Learning is facilitated better in the presence of a reward system.
So here is mine.

I think I'm going to take a printout and tack that up on my wall to keep me motivated.

Jumping off a great height feels like the most pleasant proposal to me at the moment.But I think I will wait.For this.

Only if things go as planned.

Now Playing - Whataya Want From Me by Adam Lambert
Listening to pop music when I'm stressed out of my mind is a routine around here.
Till then.

Things I've learnt this week.

Some people are not worth shit.

I've been writing a lot of poetry lately.And since the exams are rolling around that's going to become a constant. Yay? And oh. Watching movies. I can't believe I hadn't watched "The Graduate" this long.One word-Superfucktastic.

Something to think about v

Hello darkness, my old friend 

I've come to talk with you again 

Because a vision softly creeping

 Left its seeds while I was sleeping

 And the vision that was planted

 In my brain still remains

Within the sound of silence
In restless dreams, I walked alone  

Narrow streets of cobblestone 

'Neath the halo of a street lamp 

I turned my collar to the cold and damp 

When my eyes were stabbed by the flash  

Of a neon light that split the night  

And touched the sound of silence
And in the naked light I saw 

Ten thousand people, maybe more  

People talking without speaking  

People hearing without listening  

People writing songs that voices 

Never share and no one dared 

Disturb the sound of silence
"Fools", said I, "You do not know 

Silence like a cancer grows  

Hear my words that I might teach you 

Take my arms that I might reach you" 

But my words, like silent raindrops fell 

And echoed in the wells of silence
And the people bowed and prayed  

To the neon god they made  

And the sign flashed out its warning 

In the words that it was forming  

And the sign said, “The words of the prophets are written  

On the subway walls and tenement halls 

And whispered in the sounds of silence"

So young, so conceited.

I can't believe he killed himself.
I remember the first time we bonded,over our shared loved for Cobain.
I remember the glint in his eye,the sun shining on his face.

Convalescence

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So I am going to finally devote all my time to my 12th grade syllabus now. Hoping some college will forgive my condescension and actually take me in. And even though I have a bad case of writer's block .. lack of inspiration..yadaness.. I will try to come up with a Dicken's inspired short story. Which is a heavy task seeing how Great Expectations is my favouritest ever novel in this whole wide world. -_- And Gulzar saab editing is an overwhelming thought enough to wrap up my allovertheplace ego and find a place to quietly disappear to. 

PS.I really need to find a way to get rid of these mental shackles I have been subjecting myself to for some Godforsaken reason. 

Anyway,have a good one ya'll.Much love.